Finally, an answer as to the culprit of my ailments!
|The offending organ!|
I'm very relieved to have been told there is a cause for my ongoing symptoms. I'm excited to think that maybe this treatment will cure some (if not all, fingers crossed!) of my digestive problems.
But even more than that, I'm relieved to not have to focus so hard on finding an answer. So much of my mental energy was wrapped up scheduling tests, having tests performed, waiting for test results, and then repeating that cycle over and over and over again. I did so much online research and reading about tests and procedures and drugs for every possible outcome and learning as much as I could.
Months of this, and years of enduring symptoms, was exhausting. My mind had a hard time thinking about anything else. I'm kind of obsessive that way.
I'm most comforted by the thought that I can finally stop worrying/thinking so much about my health now. Of course I know I'm not out of the woods, so to speak, since I will be having surgery and the process of finding my new "normal" could took a while. Believe me, I have no notion that going forward will be any easier as far as my physical health is concerned.
But my mental health will be better, as I can rest assured that my doctors and I finally found a physical cause for at least a partial amount of my symptoms.
This means focusing on my stories and my characters more and better! Since my mind can relax now, it can wander into the fictional worlds of Chris Lacey and Helene Michaels, the leads in my upcoming Dallas Comets installment, False Start. I get more and more excited as I continue on their journey, both together and separately. It will be a little different than what I usually write, but definitely in a good way, I think. I hope you'll think so too!
This will be the first weekend in a long time that I'll have an unburdened brain, and I'm looking forward to using it in front of my laptop—not Googling low ejection rates, but writing!